How Does Your Garden Grow?

Today is the 'First Harvest' in the Western Hemisphere. While this is certainly a literal interpretation-- Berries, Corn, Tomatoes are all in now with Cukes soon to follow--  Summer and its fertile months are drawing to a close. Living here in rural northern Michigan we are as connected to the seasons and the gifts of each one as closely as is possible short of living out of doors! Most everyone I know shops farmer's markets, freezes, cans, grows, and otherwise stockpiles the abundant fruit and vegetable harvest for the long winter months. There is such happiness in popping open a jar of raspberry jam in the dark of February and eating sun and soil and rain... Our land nourishes us and we it here along the banks of  the Northern Great Lakes.
This is --for me-- a symbolic time as well; what did I 'plant' way back in the cold dark Spring months when the soil-- while still chilly was beginning to warm and seeds were beginning o germinate?What life events have I watered, fed, and nurtured--for good or ill-- that are now bearing fruit? Am I happy and satisfied with my first 'crop'? What will I harvest and what will I plow under and what will I not let set root next season?

  Back in March I spoke aloud that I wanted to attend the Witches Ball in New Orleans this October. At the moment it was the equivalent of my 5 year old self saying 'I want a pony!'-- I wanted one but Knew that it was simply not possible. Yet the wanting brought me a certain satisfaction so i continued in my request. Imagine my fall-off-of-the-couch response when my husband said-- "I think you should go"
HUH?!
And like the negative-nilly I can be I began spouting off all of the reasons I could not go-- money, time, the city by myself.. yada yada yada.
His response was to shrug and say "If you want to go plan it and do it."
Hmmmm...
So I threw the request out on Facebook--'Who wants to go with me?" fully expecting responses just  like I gave my husband as to why none of my friends could attend this rather extravagant event.
Lo and Behold-- Miss K jumped on it and within an hour a plan was made to attend!
 This little fruit of a plan has been nourished, watered and babied since March. We pooled our resources to rent half of a shotgun house for the weekend. I found a vintage gown for a song that will be transformed into something Fae-like shortly. I have scrimped and saved and finally yesterday purchased my plane tickets-- I am most proud and grateful of this particular harvest!
  But to be fair I have the bad habit of watering, fertilizing and harvesting some pretty crappy stuff too-- resentments, anger, jealousy. I work pretty hard at weeding the majority of these out of my personal garden as soon as they become visible but I have to admit that there are a few that I have consciously and knowingly allowed to take root, grow and actually prosper.  Though these gargantuan spiky plants take up valuable space in my garden and require more and more water and food to survive I have not yet gathered the strength to weed them out. These represent hurts and betrayals and for some reason I am under the delusion that by keeping these monstrous things alive I am protecting myself.
I know this is rubbish and I resolve this season to weed these out--roots and all. I can grow nothing else fabulous while these things suck up all of the nutrients in the soil of my soul...
  so this is my theme for the next few days-- The Full Moon is here and along with Her- power, energy, abundance. I will be tapping into this and using it in my life's garden. How about you?